Same shit
Opposite day

I mistake a deep breath
For a panic attack

Same shit
Opposite day

A repetitive poem
Repeats itself

Same shit
Opposite day

A history of trauma
Repeats itself

Same shit
Opposite day

A repetitive poem
Repeats itself

Same shit
Opposite day

A repetitive poem
Erases itself

Same shit
Opposite day

I take my life
One panic attack at a time

Empty mind
Of thoughts
Not mine

Empty reason
Empty rhyme

Every day
I take my life
One decade
At a time

Empty sky
Of sun
Not mine

Empty moon
Empty tide

Every day
I take my pills
One half-life
At a time

Empty ego
Empty pride

Empty mind
Of thoughts
Not mine

Every day
Uncertain
Still I rise
Full of life

Every day
Night falls
Still I rise

it’s where the sidewalk ends
prematurely
like my youth

it’s where I lost
my marbles

it’s where I sleep
like a baby
sawing wood

my happy place
remains so vast
you can’t find it
like a needle
in a knapsack

this is the best stanza
I wrote last night
in my happy place:

“tie forget-me knots
to a paradox before
graduate schools of fish
watch me sink
or swim in the deep
end of knowledge”

it’s an exclusive club
my happy place—
no pricks allowed
except the dick I think with